Today the weather outside is GORGEOUS!!! I can not believe how beautiful it is!! So, I've been away for a while, not that it much matter, not sure many, if any, people read my blog...LOL!! I need to do a better job of keeping up with it, but I fall short for sure on the updating thing.

It has been a sad couple of weeks around here. Still hard to believe that our sweet" Great" is not with us any more. I am a better person for knowing her!! She is a true inspiration to me and to all that loved and knew her!

I have got to get on track and lose some weight. The last year for us has been difficult and my body has paid the price. I guess that is what stress will do to you!! I have gained about 15 lbs in 9 months...OUCH....I know!!! I can so tell too.....in my clothes, in my attitude and other areas in my life. I need encouragement and prayer.

I am also SO READY for school to be OUT!!!! I would give anything to be able to send Tyler off to a GOOD, CHRISTIAN school. Not because I don't want to teach him, but because I feel I am failing him as a teacher, and a mom. This year has been so hard and demanding on me and I feel so much pressure......I feel like I am about to explode! Tyler has done great, it's been me!! Poor little guy!! He's a trooper and I love him so much.

Speaking of school, I was going to get started with little miss priss this year and haven't done near what I had wanted too.

UGH!!! I really could use the prayer. I want to be a better EVERYTHING!!! You name it, I am probably failing at it and I want to do better. My husband and my kids and my SAVIOR deserve more from me!!

Well, I know this blog was a little whiney and pity party 'ish.......but I really do need some prayer. I feel at times as though I feel like I am caving in with one arm stretched out for help.

Heartbroken

Sometimes when there is nothing left to say, when the tears have been flowing all day....all you can do it sit down and write. Today is my birthday and it has been one of the saddest days of my life. The highlight of my birthday is when the phone rings first thing in the morning and the first person's voice I hear is that of Brad's grandmother, Charlotte. Well, today, I didn't get that phone call. We received a devastating phone call instead. Charlotte and Jack were at their condo in Panama City and she got up this morning with a headache and then got sick. She collapsed and went unconscious. Needless to say from this morning until now, she is on life support. She had a brain embolism. They did surgery to drill a hole in her head to relieve the bleeding, but the Dr.s aren't hopeful. There is no brain activity. We are heartbroken and devastated. We are wanting to be there right now, but are trying to wait to see what the rest of the day holds. We are so close with her and she and Tyler have such a special bond. I just can't stop thinking about her and already missing her tremendously. Please pray for her, our family as we embark on these next few days. We can't know the future, but we know who holds the future. Thank you Lord for Charlotte and all that she means to me and so many other people.